WaLk oN!

Some how yesterday, we had not a bad time celebrating one of my JC buddies birthday. Happens to be looking like a perfectly normal day after which me and mor decided to drop off the bus half way from home to watch EPL soccer. The location we were at was good. Two TVs, Two matches. Even better, a place to sit was actually available that the super crowded coffeeshop.

Life started to play punk after the match ended. I was unable to find my bus stop for my bus. Walked around geylang, say for about 10~20 mins, before I finally managed to reach the stop with my bus. But to my horror, my last bus came and left about 15 mins before my arrival there. Sadly I started plotting my alternative route.

Just on a crazy whim, I suddenly decided to walk home. Its half motivated by David Tao's song, "Walk On" and thus the title. My little hike too me approximatly 40 mins to reach home, and at the cost of one knee. It felt like it was no longer mine as I approached my own residence... Because it was about 1230 am, its was quite a calming and peaceful experience, just me and myself, enjoying the night breeze and sky. And its healthy too! You should try it. I would recommend it for crazy people and normal people ^.^

Seeking Self Forgiveness?

More at the same time, a self realization.

Some how, everytime I feel that I've done something stupid or bad, I feel an overwhelming sense of guilt or whatever its called, mostly represented by self disappointment or "sianz-ness". Normally when that happens, I tend to keep to myself, rejecting anything good or that might help make me better. I don't know why I act like this, someone counsel me? Just like today, got nothing done today, did basically nothing next to watching half the Rozen Maiden Traumend series (its kinda good ^.^). Now happens to be feeling "one of those sianz times".

sianz......

IPPT day!

Even though I didn't train very hard for this one, I still didn't quite well. Surprises included improvement in my Sit-ups, a not so drastic drop for my 2.4km run and a dwindling number of pull ups. Anyway, was happy to say that I bested the rainy conditions and ran my 2.4 to get my silver this time round. Not too good an experience. 2.4km in the rain... The only difference was this time i was really running for money. Been very broke recently that I decided to go and take my IPPT early this year. So too bad, all those people who wished a free meal or something, I'm sorry that I've to disappoint you. All the money will go into funding something else, and maybe the most a special one or two person's dinner (probably not as celebration) ^.^

Had another crazy thought that just came out of no where:
Even when you end your life, it doesn't mean that time and all others will stop there. They will still have to carry on with life so please, don't make life harder then it already is for the people around and close to you. Better choice, move on and be happy~~ (why am I even thinking of something like this). hmmm....

AE86 vs JAZZ

After supper and watching soccer, I started my long boring journey home when I saw a AE86 Trueno, one of my favourite car, waiting at the red lights. Lined up side by side, I decided to push the car a bit just for the fun of it.


Green Lights, Pedals down! A quick glance into the mirror told me that the 86 was held up by another slow moving vehicle. But it didn't take very long for the Trueno to catch up. What was more surprising was that as it caught me, I couldn't keep it at bay. It just came closer and closer and soon, the blue Honda Jazz was beaten...

I have no idea how did it happen, but surely, that began to change something in me. Felt different. I guessing its what people would call the desire not to be beaten. I'm still wondering how can the AE86 beat a Jazz. The only reasoning I could conjure at the moment is that I'm not going all out yet. Other than that, all else is a mystery.

Oh, Happy Mid Autumn Fest!

MusiK!!

Just wanted to comment about the music section. The songs are normally selected for a reason, at least one, and will change from time to time. So tune in to see what kind of surprise I have installed for you. For this "season's" pick, I have Journey, Fields of Hope and 生日快乐.

Personally, I think Journey very much represents our life itself, afterall, life's a journey isn't it? Fields of Hope is a nice "insert" song from Gundam Seed Destiny and the lyrics, if you actually understand, is kind of warm. Gives me one of those good fuzzy feelings when I'm listening to it. Finally, the song by Wen Lan is picked as a song delicated to myself and all September babies!

That's all Folks! =p
*so sue me WB, haha... *

cHoC MooNcaKe! FeeLinG crAzy...

Just got to eat chocolate mooncakes from Raffles Hotel! Not bad, thou I thought much better of it. Below expectations >.<>? I'm thinking of buying some myself too. Drop me an msn message or sms. You all should have my number or msn at least right?

Recently, been thinking that I've become more and more crazy and eccentric, even to the extend that I feel that I've kind of lost track of myself too. I'm currently blaming all the emotional roller coasters life has thrown me into, but I guess presenting myself with a scapegoat will definitely not provide me with any form of solution or what so ever. I pretty much have no idea how to deal with what life throws at me anymore. Feels like I'm just by-passing many stages of life I'm supposed to do something, or even sometimes making silly, crazy decisions. Becoming increasing old with my amnesia as it worsen, forgetting many little little things that I normally would have no problem remembering. Maybe I'm right about that mid-life crisis prediction too...

SoMe PoeM-LiKe tHiNgY aGaiN

Rather then keeping my fans updated about my crazy life, decided to post something that I dug up today inside my little note book. Probably written when I was bored in school or similar to that extend. Enjoy~

Many wonders this world holds,
Breath taking scenics,
Facinative living creatures,
But none more wonderous than the thoughts of man,
Un-understandable,
unpredictable.
Further than science can reason,
Greater than math can prove.
Even to man himself,
they are purely inexplicable.

P.S. Don't ask me about it. I have no idea what this is really too. Yes, I wrote it... so what?

MaNy HappeNinG NothiNs...

Been a couple of days since i bloged. During these days, I found out that eventhough i have alot to say some times, I felt like these things were not worth blogging about. But I do think that its more interesting stuff to have happen around or to me. I think my chains of thoughts is pretty disorientated now for some reason too.
Feeling super blur. Assumed today is thrusday thou I clearly know that today is wednesday. Guess that's what makes me a blurnerd...

Today actually landed myself in a pretty awkward situation when I noticed the girl I was sitting next to was tearing away silently. Poor girl... wonder what happened. More surprisingly, all I got to know about her was she's headed for sentosa today at 11plus am and she works in Citibank. I have to comment, she does really sounds like one of those strong girls on the outside but soft soft on the inside type...

urgh.... my mom's here to strangle me again.... *died*
=^.^=

DaY gOinG e OppOsiTe WaY

Guess most of you should know how it feels like, when life decides to just have fun and play little cruel jokes on you? Kind of funny that this happened to me.

1: Lost one my headphones' ear plugs so had to look for the spare I gotten the last time I lost them. (estimated time of retrival: 1~2min) Remembering they were stored in my HP box, I when to where it was last seen. The top of my cupboard. Took me a full 5 minutes to realize its not there after digging through a box that has magically appeared there. So I had to request from help from the one that might be responsible for its relocation. My mom as usual had pretty little idea where it might be and suggested I look behind the cupboard. Crazy... its like I had my own little secret chamber for storing stuff. Hordes of my treasures were hidden there, sadly, my HP box was not one of them. Another 15 mins elasped. Frustrated was a word that could pretty easily describe my feelings then. It took another 5 mins for table sweeping, cupboard digging search before I dug out some neatly arranged files and to my astonishment, it was behind them. Great... more secret hiding places for my stuff...

2: Time to go out. I've packed my stuff and readied my soccer boots for a day of soccer at Mount Faber Safra. Wait. Where are my slippers? (estimated recovery time:10 sec) Being the only bright orange pair, no way i could have missed it. Its not in the shoe cupboard its not at the door. Its not in the other shoe cupboard either. How many more places must I look? Forsaken by hope, I gave up and wore another abandoned pair of slippers that could have easily killed me from its lack to traction. Time spent: 5min

Horrible how things can really go out of hand first thing in the morning... but hey, without all these, what the fun in life?

I'm angry... really....

PS: guai wu, sorry ah, nv pick up phone... *hoho*

~Combo Day~

Just a little combo of seemingly impossible to figure readings along with a little quiz. Kind of feared that I might actually screwed up bad for both of them, I actually some how made it through without leaving bearly a scratch. Wasn't as bad as it seems I guess. Life always has it ways of throwing stuff at you, only just to make you look like a fool by making you think that its a big issue, when its just another small fry. Well, if you ask me, I think that I rather be the fool like this, then rather screw up and die "jia-lat jia-lat" as the fool who didn't do much about the problem on hand. I guess I've have to give up a little part of myself in order to stop doing stupid things. Anyway. time for school. catch all of you there and where ever is that I see you.

PS: too bad ab didn't win wo jiayee if u reading... haha

Latest Findings about myself...

I've always wondered why my savings is always dwindling. All the money I've earned from various places have a tendency to disappear into thin air. Even things like my progress package and that GST thing have both disappeared. I think easily to a grand total sum of about 4~5k. Its a result of having to eat into my savings to survive all the time. I've never expected the situation to be that bad until recently, losing big bucks to my favourite Singapore fools. Surprising, that was good in a way as it served as a wake up call by accelerating the problem that was at hand. Now i really need a job of somekind. Anyway, helping my family save by moving out of hall is contributing negatively to my situation, though it wasn't meant to, because staying in hall did contribute a bit to spending less... suddenly felt like foresaking myself. Feeling bluey....

=>.<=

~toE to AnkLe~ + mini composition

Recently, I've posted about a broken toe-nail. Now its time for an update that injury. I think it's been causing me some pain and thus smaller, more careful steps are taken in precaution to reduce the pain I'll suffer every step I take. However, I think its starting to develop a side effect as my ankle might have been over strained by the excessive controlled required as a result. Now that very same ankle is feeling kind of "achey" and "creekish", as if its about 25,000 years old. Been pretty much enjoying life as it comes, day in day out, going for lesson, chatting with nice friends and stuff... however, I guess the harsh reality of life is going to catch up pretty quick with me. The reality of the existence of exams and quizzes, and the need to study for them. Ganbatte Ber!! (bo liao, cheer myself...)

Here's a Little something I've written(really too free?):

Beyond the end of dusk,
This Night's full moon's light beating down ceaselessly.
Bringing dim but bright illumination to the otherwise pitch black world.
Shyly the shimmering silver moon sheaths stealthily into the clouds,
carried in by the cool night's winds.
The youth of this luxurious night holds adventures unspoken of,
thrills that were unknown to those basking light.
but as unrefined nocturnal beings,
many choose to squander its secrets,
retiring to the comfort of their lair.
Only a minute handful lives for the beauty of its darkness,
detouring from norms and the society that have brought them their lives.
Did they err as humans to have chosen this path of non-conformity?
Have they erroneously done something they should not have done?

I have not much idea what I'm writing too... just give me some comments?

bLuR 75% SiCk...

Without much other words, the title says very much about my current state. Now having a running nose that probably is faster then I've ever ran. Sneezing more then usual too. Hope it'll go away when I wake up tomorrow... thou my guess is I'll be pretty much the same tomorrow.

Sickness Fly Away!