bLuR LaZy haRd woRkeR~

It's been some time since the last entry. Have been busy with exam period procrastination, games, bowling and real exam studies(minority). But to date, I've cleared(meaning taken, not necessarily means I've passed them) 5 papers, one more to go. Out of the 5, 3 are actually pretty doubtful, and I'm really afraid to fail. First time I've felt like that all my uni life. Somehow, it makes me feels like my uni life has just began, rather than having been in uni for 3 years already.

Life has always been me, being blur, lazy, sometimes accidentally or passionately hardworking. Strangely, nowadays, all the effort I've put into life actually have turned out not too good. In fact, personally, I've considered most of it wasted as I've never really developed my talents or made good use of my passion. It really gets me hating myself bit by bit as I learn in life that mistakes are normally, if not, always your own fault. Self blame plagued my life and I'm just starting to think that I seriously should get the better of myself and improve the situation. If not, I might be forever wallowing in self pity and stuff like that. Really have learn to be a better man... like in that Robbie Willams song...

Devilish Angel? Angelic Devil?

A late happy bday to shan jie, and a happy zeroth birthday to my niece, borned 15th... Excatly on the same day as shan jie~ was at the hospital to see my new niece, got me thinking if she'll turn out to be one of those devilish angel or angelic devil peoson. I feel that life not gonna be pretty much the same after her, but well, I hope stuff changes for the better.

More strange discovery: Waiter at Mr Bean's Cafe has a digital Casio watch that's dry on batteries. Wonder when time will it be when he notices it~ =p

pRoCraStiNatiOn! >.<

Its the time of the half year where procrastination is worse than ever. Its a time when you got all the time in the world, but simply refuse to do what you are supposed to do. It is.... exam time...

Well, happens to be I have a maple account to revive, a blog to write, warbook to conquer, facebook to manage, TV to watch, sports to train and even sleep to catch (even though I already had plenty during this period). Its surprising how many things you have to do just excuse yourself from studying. Oh, its about time for my drama. Hope I'll be able to study after my korean drama today... :P

eLLo exams...

Its only few more days(about 8) to the first paper, and I'm still feeling like slacking, bballing, bowling and stuff. Everything but study has been part of my daily life recently. Got me to wonder why I'm so slack and why people like to laze... After a while of procrastination, I started wondering why people like to wonder about stuff like this and a vicious cycle like this could stop me from studying forever(this is bad). Anyway, life is still never short of interesting things like me pulling out a strange sac thingy from my toe, creating a happily bleeding toe. Happily bleeding it may be, I think it was scary at first, but funny the next. Maybe I'm really turning sadistic. Hahah..... :P

PS: wonder if i should put up self sung/self played songs to torment my limited if not non-existent blog readers... *wahaha*

Stumbles and Fall...

Well, the only good thing that has happened to me was me doing well at a bowling tournament. hitting a excellent average of 187, I was pretty pleases with myself.

However, for the pass period i was away, nothing really good came my way. tonnes of quizzes, projects and personal problems piling up brought nothing but more emotional burden and mental stress to me. Sometimes I just think that many things are meant to be the way they are. Like how some people are not meant to be together won't stay together and stuff like that. As much as my refusal to belief in talent, I still accept that fate has a funny way of toying with us, making a perfect mockery as murphy would have predicted in his laws of the universe.

More stuff to complete, more deadlines nearing, more problems to solve. urgh.

meow~

Life.....

I don't think this is the first time I've mentioned this, but life has it own unique way of screwing you. Moved into depression for nearly a whole week with reasons I prefer not to state. Anyway, I've figured that life still goes on tormenting you no matter which way you go, and its up to you and you alone to make lemonade out of lemons.

An observation I've made about people is in agreement with the hypothesis of growing old makes you wiser. But I've added an extra clause to it. Wiser only in the ways that you have been horribly treated as a result of social influence.

More about life: Suddenly, my ever failing memory banks brought to my attention motivational stuff I've heard before about goals and dreams; along with how others or yourself poison and steal these dreams away from you. When I look at it from a certain point of view, dreams are similar in nature to promises, meant to be broken (seriously, there ain't much one can do with them). However, we cannot forget the fact that there are always the "lucky" (whether really lucky or not is of no consequence) few who have their dreams merge to become part of this harsh reality that all of us are faced with, giving others a glimmer of hope (in the form of "he's done it before, why not me?") of dream realization, only to allow it to be shattered like glass. Sad huh~?

Shake it Baby~

Life is always enjoyable with crazy things happening around you. Today got to see a pretty exciting dancing routine courtesy of some little girl on board the MRT. Spinning around doing pole dancing. However, for some obvious reasons it was one less of sexy as most would have thought pole dancing to be. However it was still a pretty good, like one of those art-ish displays dances.

Since I can't really remember what I really intended to write about, I'll just go further with the things that I though of during the "dance show". Still can remember one of the first time looking at kids doing the pole dance, I took and photo and offered to show it to one of my friends. Got a little scolding from her. She said I'm one of those perverted voyers and stuff like that. Eventhough I knew her intentions, it kind of got me thinking... whats the point of having camera phones if you mostly bounded by all sorts of principles and not use them at all? Well, I can't really answer the question... but hey, I still like photography :P